For over a month I've been going to sleep with the thought that tomorrow I'll wake up and get to the garage early and dye or marble on some fabric before the days turn cold. I have yet to make it. I haven't dyed, marbled, screen printed, laminated on fabric for 2 years. All of last year was understandable. And even some interruptions in this year, but to let the summer completely go by and now Autumn is here, I am not sure if I will or not. I don't have and haven't had the stamina for it. The physical stamina hasn't returned. I have returned to sketching out new quilt ideas but now that I'm faced with wanting to really get going on a new quilt, to really engage the process again, the question of how to get it all completed by hand stitching arises. What I really want to do is sit and make little hexies and sew them together...little hexies from my own dyed and painted fabrics. But I have a quilt that needs to be completed by the end of December, so hand work is out of the question. The part that I'm mostly dragging on is sitting down at the sewing machine. Also, my mind feels cloudy when I try to approach design on the design board. Everything feels new like I have never performed any of these tasks before. So I just keep sitting my happy butt down to crochet or flip through crochet patterns. I even tried to impose a "learning curriculum" on myself and the one book I keep avoiding is Ruth McDowell's book on piecing because I need to sew.
What is appealing to me about crocheting and making the hexies is not having to tax my soul to create from scratch. Although deciphering a pattern in crochet and learning to knit has it brain boost challenges, its no where near the same. It connects back to the stamina. I am due to start strength training around mid-October. I can't imagine not hooking and want to add yarn dyeing to what I do. I already have everything I need to do that so it would be a natural fit. Just need to figure out who I am once again.
If you don't change, life will sure change you. Peace.