Yesterday I was jazzed about entering Harmonic Cilium into the Indelible Spirit Challenge. At 3:30 this morning (insominia) I was reading over the requirements and discovered the piece is not large enough for the juried show. Brief disappointment was followed by a jubilant thought of "great, then this piece is free for other things, and I wanted to do a series anyways, so this is the opportunity to get busy on the next one". I tried to lay back down to sleep but then my mind was turning over how the next one would be different but embody the same theme...then I thought to heck with all this cognitive imaging and jibber jabber...so at 5:00 I was pulling fabric choices to the living room floor (didn't want to wake Peter who has been working 12 hour shifts). Made a choice and started sewing. This one will be more gold or bronze, (Shining Cilium is the working title and the series will be called Liberation) will be couched, painted, and foiled just like the other one but larger and the layout will vary. What I accomplished this morning is laying on the kitchen table waiting for paint to dry.
I have a tendency to over think and never start the ideas in my head because I think I can't work at the pace my ideas come and don't want to fall short on the delivery, but in spite of not being able to sleep, it felt really great to get up and act on the idea at the time the idea struck. I'm finding that the movement of my hands seems to bring about visual clarity and generates more ideas to the piece in my hands. I compared this to multi-tasking, but I've never liked that phrase...its more like all the senses being open to receive, energy flows, but it is focused to the activity that the hands are manipulating...have you ever seen a glassmaker in action? Well if you watch her long enough you realize she is thinking in motion and all those steps involved become so focused and centered that the work becomes a dance in and of itself. It was a great experience for me to realize that I was in that same space this morning. I'm going to catch a few hours of sleep, get up and make coffee, some breakfast for the family, and get back to the dance ;).
okay, drats, we are under ozone layer alert...just heard that on the radio. i'm noticing that these days when i'm out and about increase fatigue. it pisses me off because i understand that the problems with the ozone is manmade. there are just days i want to break out of the matrix and create my own subversive and beautiful reality.